Ok. I get the feeling that not many people will really care about this or not. but for the few that actualy do...... I just need to get this off my chest. One of my friends decided to be honest with me. She told me not to cry over it, so I didn't. but just because I didn't cry, doesn't mean it didn't hurt me. She told me that I'm a permanant noob, fail at cosplaying, roleplaying, and other things. I, being the person I am, tries to shake it all off. like it was nothing. but I can't help but feel like this will ruin some of the friendships I've made.
If you happen to be one of my close friends....I thank you for reading. Even if I don't like to cry and show people that I am emotionaly hurt. It doesn't mean I'm not. I've never once in my life had friends like I have now. And I don't really know what a noob is. but all I know is that one shouldn't try to change themself for others. I've done that to myself..... Before I met my first real friend in 6th grade that showed me that being me... is just fine. I refuse to lose contact with her because of the impact she's had on my life. (This friend is not the one I first metioned.)
I've never had anyone that I could openly talk about anime and manga before I met all my friends in Jr. High. I finaly stopped acting like someone I'm not at school. and I don't care if I'm a noob, or that I suck at roleplaying, or that my friends don't think I can cosplay. As long as I have friends I can trust, and I have fun, I'll make it through.
I'm sure you all have had problems and don't want to hear about mine. I've heard that more than I can count. but the few that do care to listen. or just take the time. I say thanks. I just needed to get this off my chest. Weither anyone reads this or not. I just wanted to vent this. (I don't use diaries or journals) And if my friends happen to read this. I want them to know They still have my full trust. Once I trust someone, it's hard to make me stop... no matter what they do to me.... they'd have to really break me to make me not trust them.